<12:09 a.m<>05.07.2002>
tonight was so great. i had so much fun. on the way home i cried because i was leaving. i cried because i love them and everything they stand for. i love talking to them and running around with them. i love their music and their voices. and seeing them a couple times isn't enough. i was happy when i was there. i don't think i could have sang any louder or smiled anymore. i was the happiest i've been since getting a new barbie was the best thing ever. but when i drove off i was sad.sad that i won't get to see them until thursday then who knows when after that. sad because i left. i should still be there listening to there jokes and laughing so hard. i'm only a girl that kind of know. just by face. that will later be forgotten. i want to be someone to them. i want them to know me by name and talk to me on the computer or phone or something. i want to have the opportunity to be their merch girl. they mean so much to me and i mean so little to them. it hurts. but at least i get to talk and hang out with them when they come. maybe that will last.
hopefully